Fire and Desire

By Tamira Conner Rogers

            My palms are dampened with my anxiety. The words are beginning to jumble and I cannot seem to form one cohesive thought. How many times have I read this?  What's the point?      I'm so confused I begin to scream at the sight of this massive obstruction. This recurring nightmare has begun to take its toll. The nightmare is about the LSAT, the Law School Admissions Test. I take it on Dec. 6. I am so ready to get that day over with.  I have been studying for what seems like an eternity.

            All of my friends ask me where I have been or people come up to me and say I thought you did not go here anymore.  That is because I have been held captive by a four-by-four room in the library studying late into the evening and then escaping to my room only to study into the wee hours of the morning. I honestly do not know how I am able to manage the grades that I have now, but I guess anything is possible with hard work.

            Bowie State University has provided me with a "Learning experience." I am thankful for it, but some instances I could have done without. Nonetheless, I am grateful for my undergraduate career here because there is no place like Bowie.

            Any regrets?  Sometimes I wish I could go back in the past and correct the mistakes I made with my college career.  Sometimes I wish I could change how much I procrastinated on so much of my work which resulted in a "B" instead of an "A."  But I cannot. I can only learn from my mistakes and prepare myself better for the future so that I do not make those same mistakes.

            Remember missing one class turns into missing five classes. Missing two assignments results in a loss of a letter grade.  I should have lived by that motto two years ago. Thankfully, I did not disrupt my record that much and will be graduating with honors, but my honors could have been better.  Next time, in law school, I will harness and foster my fire and desire.